Cross Country Inspiration

I went to Cross Country Camp 2 summers in high school. We ran twice a day, ate a lot, and had pep talks. On the last night of camp one year a counselor read this article to us.

Below is the story. The copy I have doesn't have an author, which is a shame b/c now I cannot credit he/she.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------A cold wind blew the golden leaves across the hard ground. They made a rasping sound, like a death rattle.

It was a sound that matched his breathing. Harsh and grating and painful.

The sweat was frozen in crystal crusts at the end of his hair that flopped each time he took another stride and his feet fell heavily, jarringly, on the ground.

He wore sneakers that were tattered and shredded from the shrapnel of a thousand small pebbles over which he had run. His sweatpants were gray. It was a color that matched his complexion.

His arms drooped with exhaustion, like the flowers bending to give way to winter, and his was a lost, hopeless cause. For the winter was already across the finish line, far ahead, out of sight. And the other runners had long ago left him behind.

His legs screamed at him to stop. His scorched lungs pleaded for rest. Even his socks seemed to fly at half-mast around his ankles, soiled flags of surrender.

Still, he ran.

In the autumn of our dreams, we are all quarterbacks. We are cunning and graceful and when we step into the huddle everyone bends forward eagerly and the crowd rises expectantly because it knows we will deliver the bomb just as the clock blinks down to zero.

Ah, but that is the autumn of our dreams, no in the winter of our reality.

You want to know about reality? Then go watch the other autumn sport. It is called cross-country. Watch it and you will know what they mean when they speak of the loneliness of the long distance runner.

Cross-country runners don’t get scholarships. Or no-cut contracts. Or offers to endorse deodorant or pantyhose or coffee or cars.

Cross-country runners get shin splints and blisters on their feet and runny noses and watery eyes. One thing more. They get a special kind of self-satisfaction that few of us are ever privileged to experience.

Oh, it is not from winning. It is from merely finishing, from ever going out there in the first place and running through puddles and briar patches and up hills and down hills and telling lies to your legs, and running on even when the others pas you, one-by-one, and geez, don’t they have a chest that’s on fire, don’t they ever get the dry heaves, and who cares anyway, b/c there’s no crowd, no cheerleaders, just hard ground and ugly ol’ trees with no leaves and some guy driving by a car, honking his horn and grinning like an idiot, and oh God, why don’t I just slow down and walk for a little ways?

That, friends, is reality.

Oh, us silly damn sports writers, we get caught up in down-and-outs, and slam dunks and power-play goals and a frost-bitten World Series and sometimes we get the notion that what comes out of the mouth of some semi-literate who is a millionaire only b/c his glands went berserk at an early age ranks right up there in importance with the Dead Sea Scrolls.

So we tend to dismiss things like cross-country as “minor” sports, and besides, who the hell knows how to read a stopwatch past the 4-minute mile anyway?

So in our jock fantasies, the hero is the guy who scores the winning touchdown. But that is not the reality. Reality is the kid you’ll see when you’re driving through a park or past a golf course, the kid with the stocking cap and the sweat-stained sneakers, loping along way behind the field, his eyes rolling wildly, this hypnotic trance of pain and puzzlement contorting his face.

Maybe he will not be able to put into words exactly why he still runs. Maybe he will mention something about “gutting it out” or pushing through the pain barrier or running on b/c he has this curiosity that drives him to discover just how much he is capable of….or not capable of.

That can be the harshest kind of reality, and anyone who is willing to confront it, then he is, in the truest, purest sense, an athlete.